Good News!

Guess what everyone?

NAO FINALLY REPLIED MY EMAIL! ^^

She said she's fine, same goes to her family and her cats! 

I was told that her house is on a hill, so it was out of reach ╭(⫪∀⫪;)╮there's no water and electricity at the moment though.

Thank you for replying my email Nao ╭(⫪∀⫪;)╮ I'm so glad!

Alhamdulillah

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It was St. Patrick's day yesterday, on the same day, some university staffs (including lecturers) went on strike over changes to pension plans. As a result, classes cancelled! Unlucky for me ╰(￣Д￣;)╮my lecturer is so rich already (or maybe passion over money?).

But....╭(◉Д◉;)╮I missed my class anyway! No no, not that I thought my class was cancelled too. I actually got mixed up with my time schedule.

The final session just started this week btw. 

So what have I been doing all day?

I finally got my chance to talk to my girls ╰( ≥ ∀ ≤ )╯
 I enjoyed it very much.

 It's been a very long time since called and chatted with my old time buddies.

 I remember those days when I used to spend hours and hours on the phone talking to my friends, guess I have become quite independent nowadays.

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*please ignore my English*
Actually there's too many things in my mind. 
My paranoia and negativeness have caused a great stress that leads abdominal pains. 

At times like these, 

you need those people who knows you best, 

those people who knows your real life story.

I could still feel the pain when I woke up this morning. 

Thank god Faridah was free to listen, and it works, she made me feel so much better afterwards. Thank you.

I am not the type of person who can keep her things to her self. 

Yet it's a VERY bad idea to let it go to the wrong person (which, by the way, I did)

I have a problem of being too honest, too friendly to everyone and trusting people so easily :( 

I should learn to choose my friends I can express my feelings to..... But it's so darn HARD!

Truth is, there's nothing about me my close friends don't know. 

Why Im freakin' stress now is because I'm not used to keeping the painful thought all by myself. Yet, I get so busy with uni work not wanting to waste time.

Jeri? Lol. Of course I talked to him about it :P but he always give me a reality slap instead, T,T Sigh, I know he's just saying the truth, but sometimes you need some words of comfort even though it not true. 

Kitani perempuan melayu kan, sentiasa memerlukan kata-kata yang menyamankan ati. 

Like when a fucking ugly girl asked "Am I really fucking ugly?", then the other person should say "WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? YOU'RE FUCKING BEAUTIFUL."

END (before it get worst)

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I feel rather tomboy-ish today...

*sorry, it's blurry, photo was taken with laptop*

"You said you have speech problem, but you sounded just fine!"

I guess that's what some of you were thinking when you did read my previous post and watched my vlog.

The reason why I sounded 'okay' in my vlog (atleast some of you think so) is because it was taken from 5 different video shots.

Truth is, there were many silent gaps in between and well...mumblings!

And some people who know me in person said:

It's my accent la = = It changes with the people who I talk to as well as the things that surround me. 

This is one of things I never thought I am capable of.  

Actually that has always been included in one of the Bruneian list:

4) You know you are a Bruneian if: You speak Malaysia if you meet Malaysian, speak Indonesia if you meet Indonesian.. and so on.

(Source)

I was always marked as a 'non-typical Bruneian' by my friends because I don't/can't do what most Brunei people do.

So changing the accent easily is one of the things I could not do - 

 = =  I actually speak Bru-lish (Brunei English) to my Malaysian friends lol. 

Mm...........I think I should include this too

You know you are a Bruneian if: You sound very American when you are a fluent English speaker.  (even though our school teach British English, we grow up watching American TV programme)

This doesn't apply to me btw╭(⫪∀⫪;)╮

But half of my friends were thought they came from America when they speak to the people here in uk.

Like I said, I'm not good at catching accents. 

But then again
 surprise-surprise, 
I actually can! (eventhough it takes a longggggg time)

I didn't notice it at all until my friends pointed it out, 

especially when I talk to Jeri. 

Also, some of my course mates thought I was brought up in Scotland because of the way I speak to them - But that only happened when I spent a few days with them lol. 

When I go back to my Bruneian friends, everything switched off, 
and even if I tried too, I sounded so fake. 

One other thing I realised about me is that - no british/scottish accent can come out when atleast one close friend (usually asian) is with me. Lol, okay why am I even telling you all this, such useless detail 

I made the vlog just when I came back from Uni when some bits were still left on.

 I'm saying all this to clarify everything, 

see how paranoid I am now? :/ 

But other than that,

 I guess I learned something about me that I never knew,

 I can now proudly tick myself into one of the Bruneian list :P (the accent changing bit) 

But wait, does it still apply since Im a slow-catcher? 

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Before I end this post,

I would like to thank Mizarwen for making this beautiful scrap layout that includes a photo of me in it (together with Aznuur and Esma). 

;D I LOVE!!

I just feel like it that's all.

A special post today.

Im giving you all a peek into my diary! (Ugh What?)

Not the latest one though, but nearly 2 years ago. So its not much of a big deal anymore. :P 

17th October 2008

You see, this is where I express my thoughts to when I feel like it. I don't get too personal with my blog, but I can write anything in my diary book..
Sometimes I wish I could just let it all out here.
But that wouldn't be nice :P would it. 

Im sure my parents would be reading this lol. 

Bah, you see there?

"Mummy, Babah~... Thank you for giving me a wonderful life!"

He ate my Polo~

I should say my favoarite candy I hardly miss everyday would be polo.

And wow oh wow..

 i didn't know my guinea pig loves them too! \(*o*)/

Owh Totoro....please live longer

In the mean time, 

I am still packing my stuffs~..

 Im moving out to a  new place this Sunday :) Can't wait!

 I'll post the pictures of my new room one day yah. 

Its been 4 days since my Belfast trip.. and Uni will reopen this Monday! Argh I wish the time stopped when I was in Ireland~.. Its been a long while ever since I enjoyed this much.

I have nearly forgotten the great feelings I had for all my friends. Now I remember why I sacrificed a lot for them. 

 I am seriously in love with everyone...

Experimental Nightmare

Mmm~... Maybe something is trying to tell me something... =_=

Or maybe im just tired..

Currently my life is filled with animals, laboratory work and reading scientific papers.


=_= I need a rest.

I took an afternoon nap straight after I handed in my report one day~ and had this a weird dream....

Okay it does look funny -_- but i was so damn scared you see!
Was all in sweats when I woke up.

So.. what does this all means? :P

Anyway, this is what I did last week's practical.
Another work on deep sea fish.

This is taken in the morningand..
this is what happened to the fish in the late afternoon
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"Owh~... No wonder!" - I HEARD THAT!

For your info
I study Marine Biology (+Zoology)
Its ironic somehow..
Students took this course because they love animals
yet....

Sweet Treatz!~ *_*

Im not aware much about Japanese goodies until I joined Nippon Connections. Itz a wow to see the varieties of (interesting) food they have, especially the flavors.

My favoarite would be KitKat. Somehow d Japanese never stop trying out new flavors on Kitkat, one after another. Banyak limited edition.Why only in Japan kan?

So far, i've only tried grape, red bean and custard flavoured KitKats.

The grape 1 was kinda too sweet for me, karing leherku tarus. I dont think grapes go well with chocolate.
I love the red bean flavor :) It blends in so well mmmm~Want some more!

N baru jua masareto i got the chance to try the custard flavoured KitKat from Nobita (1 of his cosplay prize)......Nyeh, not much magic there. Caramel and chocolate have always been a good couple anyway.

Aiyo, why am only talking about KitKat ah~.. *_* Of coz i've tried many different types of sweet treats~ But I still think KitKatz d best!

Anyway

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Strawberry cheese cake candy!


Its 1 of d gifts i took from Dodi for helping out the Natsu Matsuri event.

Japanese goodies are indeed very interesting~.... ;)
(Eleh~alasan c Pu3 ah~vain!)

B4 Time Change~ *_*

A page taken from my 2005 diary, 1 of the memories I treasured the most.

That time, we were at a point of growing up - facing hardships and getting to know our own limiting capabilities... At the same time, its when i realized how amazing friendship can be.

I just got done watching our college prom night 2006 video i took.......i cried :'(
I really hope I could show it to my friends online, pity i donno how.

I wish I could go back now that I could feel the distant between us :'(


Let me just show u a short video I made 2 years ago. It shows you how friendship means a lot to me. This 1 still makes me cry as well :'(

Fine~ Im afraid of DOGS ok?!

I always unconsciously jumped onto some1 and hugged them tightly when a dog came close to me. ITZ EMBARASSING yet I couldn’t help myself!! I even held some stranger in the park that 1 time *_* I’ve tried to control myself and be brave, but it still happens everytime. At the end, everyone is avoiding me sigh.


Anyway, that was yesterday. We had a Conservation Biology practical trip 3miles from our city. What a way to start my Uni… So yea, itz quite an exhausting day – had classes from 10 to 6pm, then revision in the library til 9.30pm. (With some breaks in between)

Leave it.

Owh~.. guess whose birthday is it today?

I never make a birthday greeting in my blog, this is my 1st time, so Illa, BE PROUD! Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul Lating Bugul~

Owh, and an advance birthday to Awang Lantut sorang lagi.Haha, sorry, yours simpler, I just happen to have more time for Illa

Why I don like to make greetings in my blog :–
If I always make greetings to ppl , then i guess some ppl will expect their bday to be greeted. So when I happen to be busy (or simply..lazy) n miss their bday – those ppl will feel the *OUCH* when they couldnt see any bday greeting for them. Ok fine, you may say 'no, doesn’t matter', but im sure somewhere inside u will feel a bit sad. I donno la, it happened to me.

If I could choose to skip a day every year, guess what, it would be my birthday. Why u ask? Ummm.. .long story. But anyway, Im serious in a way, I get stomach ache n headache just to think about my upcoming birthday in a week. Its weird I noe. Not that im afraid of getting older, its just that.. I tend to recall my whole life when it comes to my birthday. Whether people appreciate me or would they rather leave me dead. Its scary. My self esteem is lowest a few days before my birthday.

Yea don’t be afraid..
Itz me, Im Pu3....

Sigh~.. if only *_*

Yes~ i fancy you as well~... *_*

I like~....

My salmon sushi phone strap, not my sony ericsson mobile phone...

I like~...

my colourful flower hair clip~.. it looks so cute no matter what <3

I love~..

My laptop~... i bring it everywhere with me dimana saja berada.... Especially the fact that i could skype~.... :) Skype with Zai yesterday.. she showed me her new baby niece Aisyah XD so cute~..

I love~..

Hanging out at the Hub~.. Sorang ka~ berdangan ka~.. every single day...

Finally~...

I like~..

To be with someone~...

Being with my baka baka Nobita~...

Being with my NC fwenz~....

Being with more of my NC frenz~.. ppl im most comfortable with~..

Not to forget~..
Being with the Bruneians~... :) unlike me, they're so cool~..

These are the things that i like in aberdeen~..at the moment... Life is still as sweet as strawberry tea~ ;) (So~pu3~..) .. but then again, im not quite sure about how things are..

Im still at lose~ i do feel great about life, but somehow it doesnt feel right yet. A lot have been going on here~ and i donno what to do~... To think that im 21 now, why am i being so indecisive and still so bangang?

For now~ i could see a very long path infront of me~.. unlike before, i really wanna go through that path passing across all kinds of obstacles alone... I wanna explore the world, and learn more about myself...

What will it be~...
Just wait and see~....

From what i see~ *_*

I tend to think alot these dayz~ i've done so many mistakes - those mistakes i myself didn't even realise at first. I've got lotz to learn~....

Im turning 21 soon~ sigh, y so fast? Guess im not ready to be there yet. I wonder~.. have i really grown up? ahaha~ dari segi pikiran la. Hmmm~ i see things differently. People say im clueless~ hahaha, banar plg, well, im not really that clueless!! :P i just look bangang all the time thatz all haha.

Anyway~.. i find it sad~.. knowing the fact that not everyone can live their life the way they wanted. Yah~ so unpredictable~.. we just have to be strong and try to move forward.

About me, i wanna learn more about myself. Itz scary there's still some part of me i dont understand. I can get over the limit sometimes, itz so annoying, especially when i get too overexcited. I cant help myself, altho, i still have to try.

But then again, im glad i have been the way i am. I dont regret for all things i have done. Cause for who i am now is from who i was by then. Still~.. the future scares me...

What is love actually? *_*

Who'z init - Hadee, Ipin, Zai, Zoel, Illa & Pu3 (Sori drawingz bikin bida)

Itz been a while since i last draw~ It was supposed to be a drawing of me being alone actually~ but then i thought about all the frenz im in love with~ i couldnt leave them out.. 'I am never alone no matter where i am'. i started to wonder~.. Is there really a difference between a love for a boyfriend and a love for bestfriends?

... is it possible that~

im not there yet?...

Huhu~ anyway~..

'Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours'

Der goes the bluebunny and hummingbird story~.. They should have known that they're 2 different species hahaha~ :P:P:P

It has been great :)